A dialogue in the background is running in circuit and it is reiterating ideas I decided against. Soft quotes relying on sentiment for validation. Like a quick slide show of how things used to be, I see a different version of myself. He makes requests without question marks. He pulls worthless ideology through my line of sight, making it truth without my acceptance; I can't turn my head away.
"I really miss talking with you. Its strange not having someone intelligent to share all my opinions and thoughts with. Oh well, they say that some of lifes lessons dont get taught easily. I should have done it right the first time while I still had you. But they also say that hindsight is 20/20!!!"
Like a bullet in the middle of my heart, like a period in the middle of a sentence, like a mistake not waiting to happen. Split wide, spilling out, sucking it all back in a dramatic attempt at salvation. They are just words aimlessly wandering across the middle of my day.
Shift out, quick turn and you are breathing softly towards bliss again.
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I felt not glad when I read this. The only comfort I can give is that it will not always feel that way. One day you will be able to look back and not feel nothing towards this past relationship. You will look back and feel relief. You will breathe deeply and get that sense of freedom. A clean start... You will feel brand new.
I never rely on cliches...
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